I called the library to see if they have this month's bookclub and yes they do. They have to loan it from another library, but they have it. My typical behavior would have been to just buy it at the bookstore...thinking I got a great deal at 10% off. So, I imagine I just saved about $10. Yippee...but....but...guess what? I owe $35 in fines...from a few years ago. So, I must be responsible and pay the fine and enjoy other free books!

Also, I am working on my Cafe Press store. Looking for free use of Adobe Illustrator...the library here does not have it. Kinkos has it for .40c per minute.

Today I brought home $68.00.

Not much, but hey its something. We have busy days like holidays and special events. On the weekend days (Fri and Sat.) I can make around $100 to $150.

I guess I should think about tomorrow and what my goal should be. One of the things I need to do is face my debt and responsibilities. Writing about it certainly helps. But I feel embarrassed to share some of the stupid things I have done. I have a lot of anxiety revolving around budgeting. I have made more budgets over and over again each time failing to execute my plan. I think it is a inside thing that I need to address and why I might not feel like I deserve financial freedom. I sometimes get caught up in a spiral of self-defeating behaviors.